So where do I begin… At the beginning yea.. okay so I’m strolling down the supermarket aisle looking for some soy spread and my pocket starts vibrating. Rzzzz Rzzzzz rInG rInG… I look and its a local area code number. Slight backstory, lately I’ve been receiving very good vibes from local phone numbers (employment, purchases, brunch, etc.) so I figure “Okay, I’m gonna answer this and see what’s good?” ( &*%$ 35 sec. phone conversation @#* ) >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
2 mins later >>> I’m walking down the frozen food aisle in a state of disbelief. The phone conversation, which was more one-sided than mutual, has left me feeling a mixture of blowinesswtfsighnawnotevendamn!!!4real and a slight topping of “I can’t work like this 4ever”. I had a prior engagement that I was more than a few minutes late to (an hour and some change lol….. yeah). FAST FORWARD>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> 5 mins after the initial “conversation”/ 3 mins after the stages of general adaptation, I stood in the checkout line with the realization that I had a choice between two hard, incongruous options. Either I go to my prior engagement and deny my self will or I make a conscious, objective decision to do “what I feel?”. As of late I don’t see the point in denying one’s self at the expense of self will. Essentially, my cosmology has become one of “vibrationalrelativestresslesslivity”. I refuse to do what is “expected” of me from a society that has no respect/care/concern or knowledge of me, my experiences, and my aspirations. People always say “life is short” and make comparisons between success and life worth, but at the end of ALL of that, if a person still finds that they are constantly GIVING more than they are RECEIVING , unfortunately, the relationship is not a reciprocal one and the MISPLACED ENERGY transfer is only one sided. This may appear to be the convoluted, rantings of a person just speaking for the sake of speaking (ie. “all this talk and no action”LMAO, funny), but seriously ASK YOURSELF….. Why do I make sure I’m on time (to the job, the organizational meeting, the interest forum, linking up with my homegirls/boys,etc.) at the expense of losing my personal rhythm, happiness and in general terms……. self will/determination…..FREEDOM.
a paycheck (slave wage) < PERSONAL HAPPINESS and RELATIVE COMPLETENESS
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